Dreams... reality
Illusions....
Sacrifices...
Love...
Lust....
Pain...
Feeling....
Words....
Silence....
Poetry....
Hatred...
Dreams... just come... sometimes they are welcomed... sometimes not! Do they bring a message to us? sometimes yes or sometime they just show us the way into out subconsious.
Umer why the hell are you writing this at 11pm when u have to wake up at 5.20 am tomorrow just after 6 hrs and 20 mins? No idea! may be i feel lonely and felt like sharing thoughts... may be!
But .... i love to express myself in any form my heart feels like. Writing is also a form of expression so i am doing it!
London - A word or a name of a dream or may be a name of the to the solution to my problems or may be just nothing! but for the moment... its everything that matters to me (except my loved ones!) my dreams, my future and my happiness seems to be directly linked with it. I keep telling myself in bad days or bad moments that Umer calm down! relax! do not push or hurry up.... if u run after things/people, they run away from you. Just wait and lets them come to you. And if they do not, there were never yours! what is mine, will come to me! Yes it will!!!
Rolf showed me a flat share website today for flats in London. It made me jump with excitement because the flat prices and locations were exactly what i was looking for! i wishhhhhh i could take the flat tomorrow and move in... i wish i could!
Today the whole day i was at home, had no work. So, i played Civilisation on internet with random gamers. Enjoyed it and now i am extremely tired. I hope i wont oversleep and miss my train like last weekend when i came back from Paris. My boss called me up and told me to get up and go to work :P
Tomorrow is also the last day of March... look how quickly the time is running away.... come on Umer is it ? yes when i look at the broader perspective than yes but when i miss the people and the moments i shared with them than it doesn't. Paris was a week ago and it already seems ages ago! what does that mean? dunno know! too tired to think....
I seem to be drunk or having the drunk feeling without being drunk... but do not worry... my friends know that 'such feelings/moods' do happen/occur to me.
Enough of my shit! kiss me good night... who knows what if i do not wake up tomorrow morning! ;-)
Good night...
Umer
PS: If in case i do not wake up ever again, i just want to tell you that i meant it when i told you that I Love You! I really do! even if u do not feel the same way for me... who says life is fair! But for me thats enough if my love is accepted, even if nothing comes back.
I believe... true love is to give, not to get! Love you loads!!!
Yours, Umer.
